[GraceChristianChat] Anger

[Sandy Stinson]

I guess lately a lot of my anger has to deal with the fairness of everything. Here we try to lead a good life, but it feels like we get the short straw. For example, we've tried 8 years to have a baby. We've had two miscarriages. My cousin and his wife/ex-wife (I'm not entirely sure anymore) had kids, but they always put themselves before the kids, and it was my aunt and uncle more or less raising them. My cousin has stolen, been in jail,  gotten two other women pregnant, lived with one of them while still married (they were both heavy into drugs). The other that he got pregnant, ended in abortion of which he paid for. He has served very little jail time and yet, it seems that he keeps getting away everything. 
Before my husband and I got married, I broke my vow to wait until our wedding night, and every day since I've felt like that I've been punished for it. 

I grew up with an abusive father and it took me a long time to come to terms with that. He still verbally abuses me, but I try to tune him out. We never had a whole lot of money and you could tell it.  I do recall that a lot of members in the church looked down their noses at us because of our situation. Some of them changed after the doctrinal changes and many started leaving. Those that stayed seemed to be nicer to us and I had often wondered if it was the real thing or if they weren't being a bit two-faced. I guess that's when I started to drift away from the church.

Other than that I don't know what's caused me to be angry, but I'm hoping that with God's help that I can come to terms with everything and be a better servant to him. 

Sandy

       
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